Dramatizing Moments

Since classes has been suspended for 3 consecutive days...

im beginning to be lazy and all...
lazy enough not to study for CHYPRIN exam (a course wherein consists of 3 majors:organic chem, analytical chem and physical chem; 3 in 1; board exam-like exam to be ready for the real board exam), the exam will be tomorow, aug 18 saturday.. and i hope there will be classes by then. NOW,  since the final exam week is moved, then our chyprin exam is postponed too...

Last wednesday aug 15, i really didnt study any of the three subjects, i was so confident that im gonna pass this course! then, its just so happen na, no classes again for thursday and i was again lazy until last night....

while i was waiting for the announcement if there will be classes today (aug 17), i wasnt thinking of anything except to watch tv. i dont want to have suspension of classes anymore because of all the "tambak" task, but as expected, no classes again...
> 50plus load ang nagastos ko yesterday!!! Sana nag unlimited nalang ako!

Until....nag-drama na naman ako last night...

Come to think of it, since i was young... i dont care about myself, dont care about how others think of me... dont care if i have very high grades... dont care if i was able to make it on the top 10 or not.. but as time pass by.., things change

Everything changes...

i became aware of everything...

Marami akong gusto ma-achieve, na hindi ko nagawa before...

Like...
i wanna graduate with honors, kahit honorable mention lang, but hindi na pwede... bitin ang CGPA ko... since at least dapat 3.0, and now my CGPA is about 2.9 lang, how dissapointing
Ngayong last term ko na...this is my last chance para ma-experience ang pagiging Dean's lister.. kaya sana maabot ko ang GPA (at leat 3.0), but of course, need to pass my CHYPRIN subject muna,...
> i need ~80% for the finals to pass analytical chem; safe for physical chem so, i just need to pass 70%; and still unsafe for organic chem.
plus, ....

everything is falling out of my hands...

Bakit ganito... lagi nalang ganito nangyayari...paulit ulit na lang...
Tao rin ako, napapagod din...

Ayoko na, gotta stop this "kahibangan" on having honors, na mukhang di naman para sakin.
Gotta stop dreaming...

being contented is the key.
at wala namang patutunguhan if ma-achieve ko yung mga gusto ko, its still the same, your still gonna work, and etc...

I'll just enjoy myself, since last term ko na sa pag aaral...
and hope na hindi ako maging bum after this term...

!!!-hindi ko na as in maalala lahat-lahat ng pinag-dradrama ko last night-!!!

Anyways,
Since classes are suspended again...

naiinis na ko, everything i planned were ruined!!!

My plan today... i was gonna research sa library for our thesis write up which is needed to be revise, and gonna do the (2) experiments for analytical laboratory class since the deadline of the formal reports will be on august 22 na...so, i want to finish the reports on saturday or sundays plus the reports.

I'm done na with all the paperworks, except for the thesis write up...

Kawawa naman iyong mga hindi pa nakaka-defend ng kanilang thesis, pano na yun? if last day ng class is on tuesday...

By the way,
Balita ko, the term will be extended since nawalan ng pasok for more than 5 days, and this will somewhat be bad on my part.
I want the term to be finish soon!!!
If the term will be extended, iikli ang term break and tatagal pa ang aming last term...
CORRECTION: SURE na !!!! from aug 21-24 regular class, then aug 28 start of finals
and course card day will be on sept4 tuesday!
but still not sure, if term break will be extended...

So, NOW,
MUST-STUDY!!!!

hope my brain works na.... and i hope i can study everything (3 full-subjects which means  3 books of chemistry) in 1 day!!..

and here i go again,
im really confident na matatapos ko lahat aralin even if i watch tv while i study

Since school is adjusted, then, i am much more lazy right now...
... im sooo happy right now, done with the paperworks: critique and position paper

Mga natitirang things to do:
Thesis write up (plus research) and analytical lab stuffs (formal reports and reporting)