Before the year ends...

A year ender Blog...

Last Dec 24, 2006..Sunday, we didn't eat as a whole family because my parents arrived home late because they are so tired (and they slept for a while), and they arrived home late because of the heavy traffic. So, at night i just continue to watch "princess hours", and its story was really nice.



Last Dec 25, 2006 Monday, our family with my relatives (mother's side), we went to Laguna for swimming.. i think the name has a "mountain" word, i forgot the name. but it was fun. we arrive there at around 9am, then we ate breakfast (lasagna), then we go swimming at around 10am, until around 1pm to eat lunch (spaghetti, chicken, hotdog, barbeque). then go back swimming again and at around 2pm, my uncles,my parents and my brother, one of my cousin, and me.. drank san mig light, Lambrusco red wine, Fundador brandy, gran matador brandy. i think i also wanna try Generoso, coz its also a brandy *lol, But of course, i didnt drink them all. i just drank a little of the Lambrusco, Fundador and Matador.. and i think it is a De Javu to drink these drinks (because last time, i remember there's this emperador brandy, and now fundador, and plus matador.. My uncle joke around, if there's a Labrador?! (and we all laugh and talked about the differences of this alcoholic drinks). Anyway, i just tried all the brandy's, i just wanted to find out the difference so i only drank a little bit so i wasn't drank at that time and went back swimming until at around 4 or 5pm, we all prepared to go home. We arrived home at around 6 to 7pm. and upon arriving, i continue watching "princess hours" up until around 3 am.

i woke up late the next morning.

the Next day which was Dec 26, 2006,Tuesday, it was also fun, going out at the afternoon. going to Mall of Asia (MOA). we really had planned to watch a movie (i mean a movie marathon), but didn't know that it was a non working holiday, and there were many people so we just change our plan to just roaming around the mall and eating. I met my uncle and auntie at around 4 or 5pm. then, me and my friends had fun at MOA and stayed there at around 10pm and i arrived home at around 11:45pm. that day was really nice.

Yesterday which was Dec 27, 2006 Wednesday, when i woke up , i started thinking about what am i going to bring. so, i started packing and arranging my things. i was a little bit excited but also a part of me is not. its my first time to not be with my family this coming new year's eve. But i think this will be my last chance or opportunity and there maybe no more next time. so, i really grab this chance for me. Up until today Dec 28, i was still thinking of what have i forgotten to bring on my luggage. I'll be alone there with only just my other relatives (father's side).



I was supposed to be going to MOA again, but i am really busy and i need to rest, so i didnt attend our high school reunion again, last time, i also didn't attend because for some reasons. the next reunion, i will really try to attend..
HEATNIX (high school friends): sorry guys.. i hope next time , i could really come. miss you! miss the fun.

Tomorow (Friday)Dec 29, in the afternoon i will be going already. so this maybe, the last time that i can check my email, multiply, friendster and everything. Because i don't want my email to be flooded the next time i am going to open it. So, guys, you can still text or contact me at my globe number (not the animo sim) until tomorow.

Just want to greet you a Merry New Year! and have a fruitful one..



i am really disapointed with GLOBE, they do not have a roaming service for prepaid in the place that i'm going. so, i cant receive your messages there. You don't have to text me anymore starting the 30th of Dec 2006 until the new year comes because i may not be able to receive your messages there.

Within the week, i always slept late. And now, i do not have much time on getting my beauty sleep. *lol

Anyways, DSL now is really slow,can't even load fast. nothing is loading here. and i really hate this PLDT. since yesterday, we cant surf the net.But i think now, it is a little okay...

So, Now, i will go back now to watching "it started with a kiss", and still need to do other stuffs. (the stuffs thats not their stuff, oh! here i go again, the high school musical line again...)

Blockmates: see you next year..


My friends: love you guys.. and thanks for everything and sorry to all the things that i had done. just remember to SMILE. *Even though you dont need me now, and when you need me, i am just here waiting.



there's a saying, "New year's resolution are made to be broken"... But its YOU who can make a difference out of it, by just doing what is right.



Have a fruitful merry new year!!!

In addition, to my last blog this year... (yes! the DSL now looks okay already, coz i can sign in again in the yahoo messenger (YM), coz for this past few days, i cant sign in the YM. whew.. this is soooo much fun to again surf the net on a fast speed..But i think i am wrong, DSL is still slow...

Bye guys.. tonights maybe and most probably my last night this year to use the internet.
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Lunar Calendar?

Start:

Mar 23, '07 12:00a

> Rhea's (chinese) birthday
> just find out the (chinese) date... =p

I can't believe this!

I really can’t believe this!

Friday (Dec
22 2006), I really hate the
owner of this DSL, because I think they are using it so that’s why the internet
is really slow.. and I hate it! It is slower than the dial up because it is not
even loading. Well, anyways… let’s go to what I am really going to say

Got nothing to do, so I look and
pass by my own BLOG site (multiply); upon scanning and reading my own inputs. I
was really impressed by my own works, I mean on what I had written before.

These are my Works:

*originally
from my blogspot site & was only posted on multiply last April 22 2006

1.
“pagiging makata o
pagiging senti???” written last Oct 02 2005 (Sunday)*

2.
“why is the world so
unfair?” written last Feb 16 2005 (Wed)*

3.
“pagdadamdam o pagiging
makata lamang?” – contains “ganun ba talaga?”
written last jan 28 2005 (Friday)*

4.
“huling hinanakit....”
– contains 2 parts “Haayy..” written last jan 26
2005 (Wed) & “bakit ganun ang buhay?” written
last jan 25 2005 (Tuesday)*

PLUS, 5. “Friends are JUST Friends!”
written last Nov 19 2006

I really can’t believe myself… I
wrote everything on it. It just came out of me.

I am thinking now of not only
writing poems, but maybe a song… maybe it’s time to write a song. I hope my brain
works when it’s the time to think… or maybe I’ll just wait for it to come out
by itself.

But, is there a difference between writing a poem and a
song?? Of course there is, but I think there’s not a huge difference…

Today Sunday,
Dec 24, 2006: and its 1 day before Christmas.
I think this Christmas I really haven’t really rest. I have a hectic schedule,
I mean hectic plan. I got many things to think and many things to do. yesterday which was dec 23, we had our family reunion (father's side) except that one of my favorite cousin is in Canada, while tomorow which is dec 25, we will be having a family reunion again but now on the mother's side- we are going to go swimming. (i love swimming!!!)

But I’m
still managing to do all of the things even watching "princess hours" (i don't like the season 2 of this show!!) and now, I had time
to do another Blog. Happy Christmas Everyone!!!
Take care my friends… Advance Merry New Year!!
(maybe I don’t have time to greet you
then.. )

We are nearing our graduation
too, I still don’t wanna graduate, I still want to study… (im weird..hahaha), when
I think of it, 2 terms is not that long. Time is really fast.

Recalling
my Old Post on my old Blog (from blogspot)…

1. Jan 30 2005 Sunday @
10:18am

Is it really a HELL DAY.....

its been a nice day yesterday
night 'coz i've been to BLUE WAVE ..... and jac and i had eaten there, a bowl
of noodles with soup and a bottomless iced tea in a restaurant named congee....
and i went home at 11 pm by "hatid of jac"... so, i slept really
late...

then, i woke up at almost 5:30 this morning, i
think i have only slept for about 5 hours only, and i feel really sleepy and
yet i need to fix my things to be ready to go to school..... to have my
ROTC....

at almost 7 am, i had just find out that we are
having our HELL DAY.... and its really a hassle.. really it is!!!!

grabe! watta day!!!!

we have jog around the field for about 3 rounds, i
think! and then, we crawl .... by the field where the grasses are wet.. and
there are muds .... then we also lay on the muds.... the muds were really wet
'coz of the event last night.. the green and white day!!! i have watched it
starting from about 6 o clock to around 9 o clock..... its not that really fun
... but its worth it because my friends are there....

in our HELL DAY today, we have to eat using our
bare hands.. and the different kinds of food are mixed together... and it is
really a little gros....like a "kaning baboy".....

2. Jan 31 2005 (Monday) @ 12:27pm

I thnk this is really a HELL WEEK!!!

last monday, i slept at around
10 or 11 in the evening... then i woke up at about 5 am in tuesday morning...
'coz of tian ni's bday surprise...!!!

then on that night, i slep again around 10 or 11 ,
then woke up at 5 am again!!!

i really didnt sleep that long....

and on thursday i also slept that long... on friday
, it is also almost the same!!

then on saturday. i woke up at around 5 in the
morning 'coz i have my rotc... and did u know wat happen.. it is our HELL DAY
on our rotc... and after the hell day, my body is really tired, stressful!!!!
then we went to harison plaza to walk, buy ... and im wearing my combat shoes
back then, it is really heavy.. and when i got home, and put off my shoes, i
really felt that it is like a rock that fallen off my feet....

and then now, in this day, i thnk i have done the
HELL DAY for 2 days... im am really tired,.. on running around then running on
stairs.. on really long stairs!!! it is really a teambuilding day.. oh! instead
it can also be called as a muscle bldg day....... muscles on my feet 'coz of
the running exercise that i have done!!!!.....

3. Feb 02 2005 (Wednesday) @ 12:08pm

CHEM day.....

this day is really full of
chemstry.....

this early morning i woke up at 7 in the morning and upon waking up i prepare
my things and take a bath and also ate my breakfast.

i left house at 8:10 and at about 8:35 i am already at the house of tian....

then at around 8:45 we ride a bus going to school...

then our first class is analab.. analytical laboratory... our teacher discuss
about our final report then she let us solve few problems about the titration..
and then

after that class.. it is lunch time already, we ate at the red spoon which is
at the egi tower....

we have watched nemo there....

then, at 2:40 we have our anache class, analytical chemstry..... and our
teacher again let us solve some problems about titration....... and it is hard
unlike the problems this morning at our analb class......

this day is soooo much of chemistry!!!!!!

4. Feb 05 2005 (Saturday) @ 3:59pm

whew....

grabe !! watta sched... super
hectic!! monday to friday, i have classes... and then today(which is a
saturday), i have my rotc, in which i am under the sun...... it is really
hot.... we practice how to hold a gun.. i thnk that is an M16 or M14.. i
forgot!!! it is really heavy..especially when you hold it for a long period of
time.. and you will feel like you are having muscles..not only muscles but
muscular muscles....

later, im going out.. 'coz of the chnese new year , which we are going to
celebrate in advance , because the new year is on a weekday which is on
wednesday.......and i thnk we might have a class.....

after that, we are going home .. tomorrow, we are again celebrating the new
year with my relatives.... and i was thnking, how am i going to study for our
exam on tuesday.....??! and still we have an assignment, which is our final
report in our laboratory, which is due on wednesday already..... whew!!! it is
really hard to manage time, especially when your not use to it..... on monday
we do not have our regular class 'coz of our saliksik.... oh! i almost forgot
about our prelab report.. which is due on tuesday morning........ oh my gosh!!!
my sched is really full...

oh well, this is life...!! life is full of challenges that we must pass... and
we all have our goals that we must achieve..... but sometimes life is really
miserable.....

i almost forgot!!! let the love begin will be showing this wednesday which is
also the day of the chnese new year and it is also an ash wednesday...... i
really want to watch it!!!.....

5. April 18 2005 (Monday) @ 9:07pm

mas masarap ang may pasok?

kapag may pasok may magagawa...

kapag walang pasok, walang magawa...



anu ba talaga ang mas masaya???



mag-aral o ang matulog??



mangalawang ang utak o magamit ito?



anu nga ba talaga ang mas masarap?



mas masaya pa rin kung dalawa,

mag-aral ka.. tapos mag laro ka.. at matulog..

para balanse ang lahat...

walang labis, wala ring kulang..

6. May 22 2005 (Sunday) @ 8:57pm

wOw!!!!! sUpeRB

wow! what a day last friday
night... it was really 5566, four of them are really so handsome...

even if i saw them not that near... they are also
so cute..

i hope that i could have seen them more nearer..

and i hope that i had a camera at that time...

whew... it was really fun...

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Everything turned out just fine...

just wanted to spill this out...

since last december 4,2006 & december 11 (mondays), our course cards were already given in biochemistry2 (Bioche2), i got 2.0; and biochem lab2 (lbych48), i got 3.5; but before getting this 3.5, i was really angry because before, i only got 3.0 in lab and i know that 3.0 can't be right because i had high grades on the two quizzes given, so i asked our teacher to make it 3.5 since i only lack 1%, unfortunately, she didn't want to because thats unfair. but after that day, she told me that she was sorry because the input grade was wrong ang i really got a 3.5, so then, i was happy because all my efforts done turned out to be worth it.

yesterday, dec 19, 2006 was the day that i waited. the course card day distribution and all our schedules was on the afternoon only, so in the morning i just did all the things i wanted to (like watching princess hours in youtube, and go to a salon to cut my hair...) and plus, its the birthday of harvey and the last day of seeing some of my blockmates this year 2006

i was so so nervous on what will be my grades because i had my own goal on my predicted and needed GPA (grade point average).

Upon arriving the school, i first went to SJ building to get the course card of Jacq in Genetics but unfortunately, i wasn't the one who get it. Instead of getting it, i just went to Miguel building (M315) to get my course card in RELSFOR (theology4), i was then nervous because i needed a 3-units subject to be 4.0, coz i had a 3-units subject 2.0, for that to be neutralize. Before seeing my course card, i was really hoping to get a 4.0, and fortunalely, its a 4.0. Its my first time to have a 4.0 subject which is not my favorite subject. i often get high grades because i like the subject. but i think, now, i've really changed. i went back to SJ building to wait for the next course card which was Physical chem lab (lbych57) and upon waiting, i went to the Chem department, to find Dr. Punzalan to get my grade in thesis (thschy1), and he was so kind and gave both me and my partner a 4.0 in that 1-unit subject. And so, on this day, i was happy on getting 2 - 4.0 grades. and hoping to get another 4.0. at around 3:00pm, we already went to SJ 303, to wait for the lbych57 course card, and we waited for so long because Sir Reagan still wrote our grades, and all of my groupmates and i got a 3.5 and no one on our class got a 4.0. We waited until 4:00pm for the Chemtri (general chem 3) and Kemath (calculus) course card of my other blockmates, and the results were nice and katz and gari passed kemath.. (wow! sir diesto is nice?! really,... the first nice prof becoz sir Quevada is the 2nd one) and then at around 4:20pm, the last but not the least, physical chem2 (pysche2), we waited for this for so long. Luckily! We all passed! its the first time that Sir Quevada passed everyone and NO ONE failed. i got a 3.0, but if he had just given the bonus points, then i would have been 4.0. and if that had happen, that will be my first chem subjects to get a 4.0. But, unfortunately its not for me. IF only he had given that 4.0 and then i could have a high GPA that what i have now, which was 3.13 and its kinda low on my target GPA. if i had got a 4.0 on that pysche subject, my GPA would have been 3.33.

i am really disapointed on my grades, but still on the other side of me, i am really happy because im a dean's lister again for the 3rd time, and 2 consecutive time... whew, 3 out of 8 terms in Lasalle, and this time, my GPA's not only 3.08 nor 3.00, it is already a little higher 3.13. "TODO na TO!!!"

Because of this low GPA, i need to have a GPA (on the last two terms of my lasalle stay) of at least 3.58 so all my subjects should be at least 3.5 and at least one 4.0 and it would be impossible to do that because i don't have any minor subjects left except for BIOTICS (they say its about ethics, philosophy..). Its hard to get a high grades, ALL CHEM subjects... whew... it would be really hard this time... GOODLUCK for me.

I will just DO my best!!!!! last two terms left and bye-bye student life ...

Anyways, I am happy for everyone (my blockmates), Everyone passed pysche2 and to think that HE is our prof. this is the proof: After the course card was given to us!! (love my blockmates)

And kassie was so happy:check out what she's holding.

Gari passed all her subjects. Katz passed too, but only missed out one.

I told you guys, that "everything would turn out just fine" and im right all along... Good for everyone!!!!

We all learn a lesson this time.. We learn to be strong. We became MORE united... (united we stand, divided we fall... "kinanta mo noh?!!")
Goodluck again to everyone, next term and on the coming terms.
love you guys.... lets make the best out of the two terms left for some of us.

"i would always be here for you,my friends.... and thank you for also being there"

Advance Merry Christmas to All... and Happy New Year because i wont be here in this coming New Year's Eve. Hope you all have a nice christmas and have a fruitful year 2007.

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De Javu?

Before you start: this is kinda long....

This day was really tiring and did i really have a de javu or look a like de javu only?

anyways, we planned to meet up at around 8am today but unfortunately, we all slept late last night (after 12nn already). so, instead of meeting up at 8am, we already woke up at around 7 and we went back to sleep because we are all still sleepy, and when we woke up, it was around going 8am. so, we changed the plan to just meet up at around 9am at the school. i went out at 8:15am and arrived at the school at 8:45am (this is lasalle time).

i texted aju, to ask him where we would all met, and he said can we just meet up in EDSA. so i just waited mario, and we took the LRT and went to EDSA,but we first went to shiong's place to see if he's joining us but he didn't. so mario and i, are really tired because it was so hot and we were only walking. Upon arriving at EDSA station, aju was already there waiting. We took a jeep going to SM Bicutan. and we waited for so long (maybe around 30minutes or more) because the jeep wasn't full yet and we were doing trash talk so we also didn't notice the time. The jeep just moved at around 10am. we arrived at SM bicutan at ... uhm, 10 plus. We were already calling and texting maan, but her cellphone cannot be reached so, instead of just waiting, we just went to Club Synergy, mario and aju played some cheap arcade games and i was only watching them play. After a while, i tried calling maan, and *tada* i had contact her already and told her where we are. After that, we went riding a jeep to go to the "Bench thing", and we stayed there until 12:30pm, there were many people choosing and buying everything. Actually we were already late, so the good and nice designs and stuffs were already get and bought by others.

We were already hungry and its really hot there. so at around 12:30pm , we already go and went straight to maan's house, but because of our hunger, even though maan's house is a little near, we felt that i was really far. we first took a tricycle to go to, i think lower bicutan, then walk walk and walk to ride a jeep (jeep de javu day!!) to, i think, B.Bayan. after that, as far as i remember, we didn't ride a tricycle again... we went off the jeep and walk walk again until maan's house. her house's door was color yellow. We then again had a de javu there, because maan's brother and sister were named J.R. and Rhea (same as mario and i), so we really had fun because of that thing. Then we met sarah geronimo's number one fan. It was really fun. We ate, drink, sing, and had fun watching and listening to the fan of sarah geronimo. At around 5:30pm, we already go because there's a party at maan's house so there are really many foods there.

Mario, aju and i took a jeep, going back to around SM Bicutan again. and then riding a tricycle again, and lastly, we again took a jeep (its really a jeep de javu) going back to EDSA, it was already at around 6pm, after that, in EDSA we took another jeep... then aju went to a separate place, mario and i was left in the jeep, and afterwards, mario also left and went home. i was thinking if i will take the LRT instead of that jeep, and the thing is i didn't know where that jeep was going, so i just follow the flow, i didn't get down because it wasn't traffic and i was feeling a little bit tired back then. upon arriving lawton, i saw the jeep turning right (which was going to quiapo), so now i know, where will that jeep go. so, i went down, and took another jeep (jeep , again?!), and then,

Upon going thru the bridge going to sta cruz (forgot the name of the bridge), the jeep stopped because of the traffic, i saw two men in civilians and they have guns; the other one has a magnum like-silver colored gun, and the other guy was holding a long one, M14 or M16 look-a-like. i dont know the exact gun because its already dark back then and it was at around 6:30pm-6:45pm. At first, i thought they were just walking fast because of a contest or something. they search a man's body for the thing that was stolen and didnt find it out (its like a kasabwat), and i saw many policeman in uniforms and many people are looking down the bridge,and i found out that there was another snatcher or holdaper that had already been captured but escape by jumping on that lake or river or whatever that water resource is. the people and the police were searching for that man, and upon pointing out by a civilian, the man holding a magnum-like gun, Aim and shoot that person at around 3 times but i think he miss that person. that person was still swimming to the other end (in the binondo side of that lake or river), the police rush (running) to go to that side. of course, i was a little tense back then on what i saw. it was really traffic there at sta cruz so i saw that scene. after a while, upon reaching a part of sta cruz, i saw a police talking to a civilian, and then the civilian point out a person (who was a bicycle man), and the policeman called him out and search the bag he's holding, of course i didn't heard the talking, but after talking the police just slap (batok) the guy. the jeep moved a little bit and i was impatient then because it was already 7pm, so i went down the jeep and walk to another jeep station (which is going to mayhaligue, metropolitan hospital, and it is where i was supposed to pass to go home), upon walking there at sta cruz, it was a little freaky, because i hear all people saying, "may snatcher", so i rush quickly back then. i ride the jeep, and the jeep moved at around 7:10pm because the driver was waiting for it to be full. it was again traffic in Recto. i really hate traffic like that.. it was so hot. then, upon passing recto, it was already not traffic at all. the jeep moved spontaneously, and then, i can't see much of the way because there are many people on that jeep (as i've said, it was full), so i just estimated, i thought i was already at the 1st "kanto" so i said, "Para po"; and then when i went down, i saw a basketball court and many people celebrating already the new year (because of the fireworks), and i said to myself, "where's mayhaligue", and when i look right, look to my front and there! *tada* i saw the mayhaligue "kanto", so i made a mistake, i estimated the wrong "kanto", i thought its the first block but it was the second block, but i can say that its the first block which is a road.

did i really have a de javu back then??!! come to think of it, i can't think.

this day really is .... i really can't say what kind of a day it is.. all i can say is... the day was fun... plus exciting.

*this are exclusive for my special friends only*
because this is the same day that i am not online and i am not at home, and you dont know where am i this past few days.
thanks , my friends! (some of you know what im talking about)... love you guys... thanks for understanding!
Just dont talk about this things in school (or in any public place), this is exclusively for just us.
I TRUST YOU! don't ya bring me down...


(i think there's some mistakes on the grammar or some typo's too.... )
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New Life, New Beginning...

Start:

Jan 1, '07 11:00a

> its 2007,

>HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!

>new year's resolution again?! but its time to really have a resolution, and to have a resolution done.. the change must start NOW!
>at the end of 2006, resolutions are already activated but not quite, NOW is the time that it must be totally activated and DONE.

Give Love on Christmas Day

Start:

Dec 25, '06 12:00a

>its christmas time!!!
>vacation is ON...

>MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY , HO-HO-HO

thinking, thinking & still thinking...

i was just thinking... and i come to think, that everything really happens for a reason , god is always and was always giving us challenges/trials in life that we need to overcome or had overcomed. After one obstacle, there's the other one coming... and this just happens over and over again, either the obstacle is easy or hard.

i was about to sleep early last night around 10pm, and then my parents and my lil brother suddenly open up a topic about one of the girlfriend of my brother's friend, in which the girl drink "baygon", but luckily, she didn't die because she was rush to the hospital. and then, the topic just went on, that my parents told us, that "dont lose hope.. just fight! even though life is hard. dont give up. coz when you give up, u're already giving up ur life and ur will to live". Come to think of it, my mom and dad were right. they added, "when somethng bad happens to u, or a big challenge comes ur way, think of it as a blessing in disguise from god, because god maybe has a better plan for you. and when you go down, just continue to fight until you come up again. life is too hard, so be strong, and always fight, dont lose hope." Nice Words, huh?!.. i almost cried last night on the life story of my parents when i was about 3 years old (so it was at 1990?), i dont know the exact year.

In those years, our family was just eating "galunggong" everyday and its my favorite back then, its because we don't have money and we had a big debt of around half a million... so my parents still continue to fight inspite of those things. it was really touching that they still FIGHT knowing those hard things happen to them...

this always happen, when i was about to sleep EARLY, there's always a topic that comes in ...and my sleep was postponed to around 12midnight, and then at the same time on talking to my parents, there's also someone who texted so upon commenting and listening to my parents, i was also texting; but i think i was really inspired by my parents words and its nice...

On the other hand, i will try not to think of achieving what i want on graduating with honors, coz i think its not for me, maybe god has something for me , which i didn't know. whatever i do, i just cant achieve that, even though i study or not study, (this kind of thing had already happen before in my elementary and high school days), my grades are still the same, i still PASS and get the same grades...

i will just do my best and whatever the results maybe, i must accept it.

Ofel (love you,friend), its ur fault! , i was also thinking of the future too... i was already thinking of my plans too. i only had a goal that i want to help my parents. but i think that's too broad and uncertain, so i need to think of a plan that i will surely do after graduation. and i think i already have a PLAN!!!

even though im not a religious person, and i dont go to church, i dont know why i kept telling it.. and still using it. maybe i was just being optimistic. i believe some of the sayings, coz its maybe base on some of the experiences in life.

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my Life's still a mystery...

i really don't know what to do...

i study hard coz i am hoping to achieve the grades that i want, then when i lose hope becoz of my results on some of my exams, .... i would not study anymore becoz its not already worth it.
and now, i know my result in pysche exam2, i got my hopes back.

i think , i wanna study hard again....having the hope and having my goal back are the things that helps me to study real hard.

but, come to think of it. i can achieve my goal. but my 3rd exam in pysche is a failure. of course, hope for the worse coz when i hope for the better, it turns out to be worse...

Why is this hope still coming back ?? hope always leaves me, and it always comes back all of a sudden.

it is the same for other things, when you wanna help somebody or everybody, and then afterwards, when you think life is unfair, you told yourself, on not to help becoz of how life is being unfair to you. But that isn't whats happening, it always still turns out that i am still helping.

I just wait for what we call as KARMA.

i dont know what's my purpose in life?
Maybe, ...
my purpose is to help everyone in need and help my friends...so, i was born to be a dedicated person .. dedicated in all the things that i do.
so i think i dont have a right to love anyone, and no right to achieve my own goal in studies... coz if i just live to help, anything i do won't still work to achieve my own dreams.
and also, i dont have a right to have my emotions, i dont have a right to be angry with anyone, becoz to help other people, i must always feel that not to help others is the time that i will feel very uneasy.

did u get my point?!

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CHANGE TOPIC!!!

(this is not related to the one above)
just wanna tell how i feel right now...

my head hurts a little little bit!!! i wanna spill this out already....its bad for the health..
but ang hirap ipilit eh...i will try to spill this out talaga. i still feel the air in my stomach.


Guys, (u know who u are and u must know who u are),
thanks so much.....with matching *sob*

i really had fun last night.
dont worry guys, if u need me, i will just be here...and u can trust me...
with matching Quote: "ang sarap nyo kasama" HAHAHAHA

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