thinking, thinking & still thinking...

i was just thinking... and i come to think, that everything really happens for a reason , god is always and was always giving us challenges/trials in life that we need to overcome or had overcomed. After one obstacle, there's the other one coming... and this just happens over and over again, either the obstacle is easy or hard.

i was about to sleep early last night around 10pm, and then my parents and my lil brother suddenly open up a topic about one of the girlfriend of my brother's friend, in which the girl drink "baygon", but luckily, she didn't die because she was rush to the hospital. and then, the topic just went on, that my parents told us, that "dont lose hope.. just fight! even though life is hard. dont give up. coz when you give up, u're already giving up ur life and ur will to live". Come to think of it, my mom and dad were right. they added, "when somethng bad happens to u, or a big challenge comes ur way, think of it as a blessing in disguise from god, because god maybe has a better plan for you. and when you go down, just continue to fight until you come up again. life is too hard, so be strong, and always fight, dont lose hope." Nice Words, huh?!.. i almost cried last night on the life story of my parents when i was about 3 years old (so it was at 1990?), i dont know the exact year.

In those years, our family was just eating "galunggong" everyday and its my favorite back then, its because we don't have money and we had a big debt of around half a million... so my parents still continue to fight inspite of those things. it was really touching that they still FIGHT knowing those hard things happen to them...

this always happen, when i was about to sleep EARLY, there's always a topic that comes in ...and my sleep was postponed to around 12midnight, and then at the same time on talking to my parents, there's also someone who texted so upon commenting and listening to my parents, i was also texting; but i think i was really inspired by my parents words and its nice...

On the other hand, i will try not to think of achieving what i want on graduating with honors, coz i think its not for me, maybe god has something for me , which i didn't know. whatever i do, i just cant achieve that, even though i study or not study, (this kind of thing had already happen before in my elementary and high school days), my grades are still the same, i still PASS and get the same grades...

i will just do my best and whatever the results maybe, i must accept it.

Ofel (love you,friend), its ur fault! , i was also thinking of the future too... i was already thinking of my plans too. i only had a goal that i want to help my parents. but i think that's too broad and uncertain, so i need to think of a plan that i will surely do after graduation. and i think i already have a PLAN!!!

even though im not a religious person, and i dont go to church, i dont know why i kept telling it.. and still using it. maybe i was just being optimistic. i believe some of the sayings, coz its maybe base on some of the experiences in life.

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