ALL of R-H-E-A

Its been so so long since i wrote or type a blog here...

lahat na yata ng hinanakit ko and kasiyahan ko will be here on this entry.
yung family, wag nalang, because kahit anong mangyari, Family parin yan..

my sTuDiEs

When i was a child, gusto ko talaga ng with honors, and so... i got 2nd place in nursery, in kindergarten, i think im on top ten. in elementary, high school and college, i think, i havent done that good, parang pa-urong or pa-atras lahat but still either im on tope 20 or top 10 naman. i never failed a year or repeat a year, not even in english or chinese class. im so blessed even if i dont study talaga. in high school and college, i often brought or read my books talaga, and i dont even write notes except it its required for a professor or teacher. Pero may kulang, of course not all people are contented talaga. i want to graduate na talagang mataas ang honors , ung with pride. para mapagmalaki ako ng parents ko. high school was too late for me. then sa college, d ako umabot kahit sa cum laude lang. may mga sablay akong subjects like religion na i dont practice naman kasi, and i hate subjects with memorization, ang gusto ko mga math based. buti nalang, i have some organization, and may position ako, kahit pano, i have extra curricular activities to be proud of, and experience was the impt thing there.
Tapos, due to working agad after my last semester in college, nung nag board exam ako, i was already working overtime and all... lalo na't its been a year, kasi once a yr lang board ng chem, and i didnt enroll sa mga review center. the passing grade sa board is 70%, and i got 68%. i failed all the subjects. at first, it was so hard for me, kasi parang im one of the top at our block, then, ako lang ata bumagsak bigla from the top. but then, i think god has reasons for it.. taking it again would be think not just once... because pride na rin cguru and bakit, magagamit mo ba ang license kung wala ka namang work?? "basta kumikita ka kahit walang license". EXPERIENCE is the key!

my CaReEr

First, at my work... being in PCPPI-pepsi cola products phils inc.
on the work itself, i am happy with it, im having fun, it really interest me.. especially testings, preparing chemicals or reagents, weighing, and also, operating machines kahit hindi ako operator-pakilamera lang and want to learn talaga ako.
i want to be promoted talaga, but maybe my destiny wont want that to happen, there are about 2 opportunities na- because 2 people have resign or leave the position of QC section manager on which is two level up on being a QC analyst.And, hindi parin ako, isa nalang na opportunity, then pag ang promoted one ay mas bago sa akin, then, Galit na ako talaga!   then, for my target to transfer on different department, like un process or syrup preparation department, on which ang positions doon ay supervisor-on which is one level up sa analyst, but then nagkaroon na ng 2 opportunities doon but then, their reason is that ayaw na nila ng girl... so discriminating! gRrr... pero ang kinuha, bakla naman! last na lang talaga na may ma-promote pa, ill see, then, tsaka na me magsasalita on the next move...
and, may isa pa akong pangarap na position, Line section manager, on which handle talaga mismo un bottling line and crew... i so like that, kahit na puro pressure, at galit ng boss ang maririnig, how Exciting diba?! kaya lang, wala pang babae na nagiging line sec.man e... its all with the machines rin kasi, and grasa...etc... but im willing to learn sa troubleshooting.. yung pag operate ng equipments or machines (like: filler, pasteurizer, casepacker, palletizer, labeler, coder,etc), marunung na ako nun as of now... so interesting talaga... new challenge diba?! lalake ata talagang work gusto ko?!

Second, my collegues, or co-analyst...
gRabe! kakalerki! pang-baklush yun term e noh.. anyways, dati un mga kasamahan, okay naman sila.. working professionally talaga.. may mga something but then, okay lang.. because all are working. pero nun nag resign or na promote na un mga kasama ko, ako nalang natira na matagal na talaga... grabe talaga! parang ako ung naging casual/probee, at nagmukha silang regular.. based sa work, kaya ko lahat dahil multi tasking, or kahit 3 lines pa hawak ko, like nun umulan last week, biglang d pumasok mga ka-shift ko, instead na 1 line lang dapat, 3 lines hawak ko,and kayang-kaya ko talaga... basta hirap mag explain... tapos kapag may audit, then we need documents, ako parin gagawa lahat, they dont even care, they dont even think of others or the company, basta pumapasok lang sila.. and parang they arent concern... pag di ko ginawa, and iniwan ko na, with note or something, the next day, i would still see those things the way i leave those.. and they wouldnt even bother.. parang kahit konting help, wala. maybe, they think na im so yabang, pa-bida.. pero hindi ako ang pa-bida kasi hindi nga ako favorite ng boss ko, even if i do everything, sobrang sipag ko na and all... coz boss like war on QC and production side, so, sa email or reports sila tumitingin, and ako lang ang hindi mahilig mag report, mga kasama ko, report lang ng report... kaya pinupuri sila.. and my collegues didnt know na nakakatama sila ng ibang people.. cympre pag may report, may mali or error, then may kakasuhan ng mga suspension... ako kasi, i think of others, i know, mahirap kumita ng money, even if i sometimes hurt other people ng di ko alam, i try to think or be on their shoes para i would feel kung ano ang feeling ng naghihirap. because sa planta, almost lahat ng tao, mahihirap talaga and vocational lang ang tinapos.
Ang hilig kasi nila mag play ng computer games like diner dash, and ako, i dont play, chikahan lang ginagawa ko, but then before ako magtambay or something, i finish my work naman, i make sure na wala na gagawin or wala ng maitutulong sa lab. my motto kasi is, "do for today all the things that you can do", ... ako nalang kasi lagi ang concern at gumagawa, sabi pa nga nila, feeling section manager daw ako... im bossy raw... eh yun ako e.. but pag sa trabaho naman, hindi ako nang uutos talaga, i do things myself kahit mabigat or mahirap. ung sinasabi na being bossy, doesnt mean na utos ako ng utos.

Because of all that im feeling, i always wanted to resign na talaga.. but then, what will i do after if i resign without any pending or work applications, diba?!, and buti nalang i have my ka-tropa.. and still having fun sa work itself...and the company.
i would think some factors muna, like before ako tumanggap ng other work, location, salary, and the work itself, if it makes me happy or if it interest me.

my LoVeLiFe

May ganitong field pa ba? wala naman ako nito e... "let go" is the keyword!
no one understands me? mas maganda kung: mas mahal ako, kaysa sa,mas mahal ko,right?
bigo rin ako sa part na to... so what can i say...i was born to love...
i think i was born to help people nalang....

for myself...
diet ko-jumping style.. sometimes super payat ko pag maintain ang diet, but then pag nasira, wala na, i get fat easily...
sometimes, nalulungkot nalang ako bigla... nothing is good with my life, but the truth is, i think, everything is good, but not better...god is always here! kaya lang, walang swerte sa career (promotion), sa lovelife (break-ups), and...
i dont know na.. parang wala akong tama na ginawa... its all wrong.. ever since pumasok ako ng pepsi... and parang domino na... but i think, im stronger now... being able to overcome everything.. surpassing every challenge in life.

`proactivity.pepsi -shirt w/ rainbow earrings`

IM STRONGER! and i should be...

others:

before, super addicted ako sa high school musical, right?
now, i really love hannah montana the movie... oh my gosh!!!
Love the movie so much, been watching it several times na....
the songs and the dance steps.... wOhOoOo......
watch the movie , and you will see...

This is two songs i like from the movie so so much, but the other songs are also nice..

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for the official music video of the first video here:
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~in addition to all this, this is the last day of CORY aquino, condolence...

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