The big question: WHY?

12/21/2015

WHY?

God please tell me why...

God I know everything has a purpose.
but should I fight for it?
will I easily give it up?

How can we know if we don't fight for our love?
God can you please help me... help us.
What did I do wrong now?
I have promise to change, and im doing it.
but still, what is happening?

Everything was okay the last time we're together.
what had happen?

God is there someone else?
why?
please god.
Cant our love given another chance?
im really crazy already.

cant we fix it? cant we talk it over?
what do I do?

why do I feel life is unfair...?
I cant stop thinking and crying, please god help me, and help us...
does he not love me that much?
am I not worth it?

I feel helpless and hopeless...
I don't feel like living my life.

im really sorry for all my sins.
thank you for everything.


12/23/2015

God please help me, and help us both...
Cant we be together? forever?
How? im really hurting...

Ar we meant to be?
are we destined for each other?
i really love him, if we will break... how can my heart can mend?
i did not expect to love him this much...
im really sorry for being me, for being crazy...

can we change together?
can we improve together?
please God...
does he love me?



1/5/2016


God what is happening again?
my love is tearing apart?
I did my best. I tried my very best.
all my heart and understanding I could give.
I try to deliberate, and I try to be patient.
im not perfect. im not a bad person. but still... why?

please, im trying to be ok.
please help me.
pls guide me.

thank you for everything.
sorry for my sins.
Are we not meant for each other? but why did I see that?

A Second Chance

a second chance
starring bea Alonzo and john Lloyd cruz

part 2 of one more chance,
last time, with derek ramsey and maja Salvador
now, with billy Crawford and arci munoz

Its life of a married couple story

"i promise to love you even if it hurts"
"i love you more when it hurts"
"ang meron lang ay TAYO..."

Watch last dec 6, 2015, last full show at Robinsons sta rosa with my jhay, 8:30pm., with popcorn and water.
The movie is nice.

*no copyright infringement intended

Everyday i love you

Starring Enrique Gil, Liza soberano, Gerald Anderson

where ethan, Audrey and Tristan's life cross paths in Bacolod...

The lizquen loveteam has a different flavor, different kilig...
Different loveteams have unique effect on us, like kathniel, jadine, and etc...

Watched last nov 7, 2015 at SM Sta Rosa with my one and only...


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Closer Jhay and Xandz Video

Closer JhayXandz - Kizoa Online Movie Maker

http://www.kizoa.com/Online-Movie-Maker/d26586004k1097967o1l1/closer-jhayxandz
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Nov 4, 2015

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My All...??? Thank you... 2015

Continuation of My happiness... to Forever...

Memories

October 31 to November 1, 2015 - with my jhay (33)
Nov 7 2015 - Cook corned beef, SM Sta Rosa, Everyday I love you movie, Shopping, Jollibee pav... (34), 23th
Nov 17 - Watch resident evil retribution on laptop, (35), 24th...
Nov 22 - watch the maze runner on laptop, (36), jollibee
Dec 5 - 7-11 hotdog, Centro mall cabuyao, lugaw and gulaman, APEC Victoria homes (absent) (37) 25th
Dec 6-7 - mercury drug -medicine, A second chance (john Lloyd & bea Alonzo), Jollibee, popcorn moviedate, 26th, (38)

dec 22 - break up issue? huhu , (39), apartment... give gift.keychain.
Dec 26 - rebond hair.
Dec 27 - cabuyao at his tita, (40), 27th.
Dec 29 - cavite lot. starmall alabang.
Dec 31 - apt, spam and tuna, chicharon (41), 28th

Jan 3 - brought donut. but did not see him. ,waiting only.
jan 4- last talk... :'(

God can you please help me...
I do not have perfect relationship... I am not perfect... but why is this always happening...
I did my best, I was doing my best...
God please guide me.


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Resureksyon

watch at sm sta rosa at 5pm last Sept 26, 2015 saturdate with my boss, one and only love.

Resureksyon , horror but little comedy
starring jasmine Curtis, Paulo avelino and isabelle daza

at start it is scary, and terrifying...
but towards the middle part, its just normal...

good acting of all actors, but I think the story is a little short, wants extension of the story.



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Maze Runner: The Scorch Trial

The title and trailer and also tagline is very intriguing...
MAze runner: the Scorch trial
A movie about a virus, who is searching for a cure on all the teenagers blood sampling

Many people are falling in line for this movie, so me and my love got curious about this...
We watched this at SM sta rosa after our roadtrip to Calamba Laguna
Yesterday, September 20, 2015 Sunday (from apartment, to church, to Calamba laguna, went to bunga Falls and Isdaan)

the movie is like a combination of "The island" and "the walking dead" movie/show...

Its thrilling, exciting, terrifying,...

At the end of the movie, its cut... Wait for part 2


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Ex with Benefits

Ex with benefits movie has a plot with exactly the meaning of the title of this movie
Starring derek ramsey and coleen Garcia, they look good together.

The movie is nice...

Supposed to watch at Robinsons sta rosa, but transfer to SM sta rosa (6:10pm).
Wednesdate dinner at Greenwich after the movie... with my one and only Jhay <3
It was raining hard that night...

I was on leave from work, because I had my check up that day...


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The Love Affair

The love affair
Robinsons cinema Sta Rosa

Aug 31, 2015
with my jhay.

Starring dawn zulueta, Richard Gomez, and bea Alonzo
with tom rodriguez, jane oineza, grae Fernandez, manolo pedrosa,...

This movie is really worth watching...
Very realistic, very dramatic...
this made me cry...


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Mission Impossible: Rogue Nation

Mission impossible of Tom cruise is really amazing...

I had watched other parts of this particular movie.
Watched this last sunday, august 2, 2015 at Robinsons sta rosa cinema 2 with jhay at 4:40pm.

Its really nice and fantastic actions can be seen.


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The Breakup Playlist

The break up playlist

our 2nd movie to watch together with J., our first was You're my boss of Coco Martin (pong) and Toni Gonzaga (georgina)

Watched last July 19, 2015 at Sm cinema 2 of sta rosa.

The story has backtrack and playback time... that you must understand while watching...
Trixie ( sarah Geronimo) is a good singer, and together with Gino ( piolo pascual) together with their band and their relationship, until it gets rocky...

with "do me a favor..." line, and where it all ends.

"sa dulo ng lahat ng ito, may nakikita ako, hindi ikaw, hindi ako, kundi tayo"

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Just List the Dates

Thank you God for everything...

The monthly dates:

2014
Aug 27
Sept 25
Oct 24
Nov 20
Dec 21

2015
Jan 20
Feb 18
Mar 17

***
Apr 13
May 04
June 7
July 5
August 1
August 31
Sept 24
Oct 22
(nov 7?)\
nov 19
dec 17


*Sorry for I have sinned.
Hope that everything will be okay.

My Real Happiness... to Forever???

Hope this is it, and I did the right thing...

I've never been this happy <3 but ive never been this disturb, because he's different... Memories: apr 1 - text/call RE apr 2-3 holy week holiday, RT texted. --- (August 27, 1989 bday of RAT/JR/) apr 4 - with R.T. (1)you're my boss apr 5 - splash with family apr 11 - RT (2) apr 12 - RT (3) apr 17 to 18 - RT with... (4) but first apr 19 - RT (5) apr 24-25-26am - RT (6) but second, Nuvali moment. *Thank you for everything. may 1-2-3-4 am - RT third and fourth, (7) may 8-9-10 (meet the mom and sis, and workmates) - I have may 16-17 fifth and sixth (8), "movie: warewolves- half only" we did not see each other for a long time, and not much of communication... I spent my time on playing clash of clans COC, so that I could meet him there may 30-31 he went to Puerto galera, mindoro may 31 - june 1 RT (9) - seventh actual. he gave me a shirt and a bracelet with my name rheasan on it, from Puerto galera june 3 - his 'ate' is back, he drank with workmates june 6 - RT (10) tagaytay trip, to his workmate's house, SM mang inasal, motor canvas RT june 13 - give the watch, watch "seventh son" eight actual. RT (11) , june 14- he drink. I told my parents about us. He is already trying to text or call me... june 20-21 watch divergent part 2 movie, "insurgent", ninth actual, RT (12). Jogging. Loyalty is the best policy. July 11 - (13) 10th actual. give my gifts, bag, tshirt, coin purse... july 12 - sm and rob. (14) Jollibee. supposed watch movie date. july 19 - the breakup playlist, arcade, Jollibee, ...(15) july 28-29 - 11th actual, (16), pizza and 7 11. August 2 - (17), mission impossible, Jollibee, pringles... moviedate Robinson August 8 - (18) 12th actual, Jollibee Robinsons, with tropa. August 10 - bought Cap for JR. August 14-15 - bday celebration turns to bad dream... 13th, but... (19) God, please help us, guide us... thank you. Don't know when he really started calling me Boss. about August*** August 22-23 - Buy ulam, Church on a sunday. 14th, (20) August 30 - went to our house, first time... > visit our house***
August 31 - dental, sm and Robinsons sta rosa, watch the love affair, (21)I have.
September 6 - apt, drink and videoke at his workmates house, Jollibee , (22), 15th
***Posted our pic together on facebook. 5th month already...
September 12 - apt, he was drunk, SM sta rosa, ride jeep, SM Mang inasal (23) 16th., he took a bath in the rain.
September 16 - apt, Hospital check up (leave), Robinson to sM sta rosa, Ex with benefits moviedate, wednesdate Greenwich SM, 17th... (24)
September 18 - >>> the dooms day discovered sept 9 happenings and sept 11.
got off early from work, and went to laguna for confrontation and explanation. Robinsons sta rosa, hotdog sandwich, Jollibee for late dinner on midnight.
with him, until morning of sept 19. 18th (25)
Sept 20 - apartment, to church (sta rosa), went to calamba laguna, supposed to go to rizal's house, but went to km 99, then to bunga falls, wearing high heels, and to Isdaan... back to SM sta rosa, Watch Maze runner: the scorch trial movie, Mang inasal for dinner. (26)- 2nd confrontation (must stop this). with him until morning of Sept 21.
Sept 25-26 holiday wait at caltex, laundry Saturday, flavours of china restaurant, moviedate resureksyon, black pearl, sm sta rosa (27)

God please help us... be strong and have a good relationship... thank you for everything.

October 3-4 2015 - overnight, then church... 19th (28) happy 6 months.
October 11, 2015 - Laundry day, (29) 20th.with mug gift.
oct 18, 2015 - typhoon. Cook tuna adobo. (30) 21th. strange blood, etiquette for mistresses (copy on USB only).
Oct 24-25 - Oktoberfest at greenfield city, copy of movies, first time coffee, 7 -11, 22th*, (31)
Oct 27 - sudden go... (32)- to fix the problem... almost...
Oct 31 - to nov 1 (33)

(see "my ALL" for cont'd) ---->>>

Photo album 1,2,3 ---***

Love Trust Faith Respect Loyalty understanding Communication Honesty Patience Time Courage Acceptance Sacrifice Effort Forgiveness Forever!!! Destiny. Believe.


I hope I can do this, I can be strong...
Even though he doesn't text me or message me, I will still be here...
I love him more and more every single day, I really miss him <3
I am sorry, if im not perfect..., I hope he really love me truly and wont leave me...

I hope he loves me too, and he is honest with me...
Thank you God for everything...
God give us good health, and good relationship...

You're my Boss

watched last April 4, 2015 Saturday,
at Robinsons sta rosa with J.
First meet again... after 2 years...

first day of showing of this movie.

You're my boss is really funny. They have different chemistry together.

Coco is good already In Rom Com, and also of course with Toni.
Pong and Georgina simple love story.

this is where it all began...


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Crazy Beautiful You

crazy beautiful you
with Kathryn bernardo and Daniel padilla
inigo pascual, gabby concepcion, and lorna Tolentino

this movie made me cry, laugh, and be emotional...

last march 1, 2015 sunday, with *, at SM
met some old friends also...

Advance birthday, belated valentine's treat to us.

Jacqueline (kath) is so bratty, with hard heart, due to the pain that she had felt because her mom leaving her with her dad.
Kiko (Daniel) is a normal boy living hard with her mom, with a dad that is a mayor, by serving and doing everything for his family.

They meet, they help a tribe in tarlac.
They end up helping and guiding each other, and fight for their love, upon obstacles and challenges in family and in life.

Some lines:
"kapag mahal mo, kahit mahirap, kakayanin mo"
"madam baby..."
"shy type ako"
"first time ko..."



Nakakainlove, nakakakilig, nakakatuwa, nakakaiyak, maganda...

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Strive harder for 2015

Move on...


Sorry for JAn 26 2014 - R.E return , but I rejected him...
I regret that day... that I chose JDC.

my memories

feb 12 1987 bday.r
july 28 2013....
jan 30 2015.....


2013 calendar---
july 21 R eat
july 22 or 24 or 25 sby R motor
july 26- r.m... omg to 27 (1)
july 27 - mf back.
july 28 - rsim-
July 31 - sundo mf
aug 9 - hol.r.. (2)
- Aug 17 htx reunion .to mf ..*
Aug 24 - block reunion - M-
aug 25 - r... (3)
aug 28 - r... (4)
sept 6 - r... (5)
Sept 9 proby na ako. tampo R
sept 17- first day work LCI. last tx of mf
sept 21 -r... (6)
sept 28 floodph.
sept 23 to oct 12 pigsa
sept 29 rGo -***R (7) watch movie.insiduous ---------
oct 13-- hayy....calling of z****. from oct 11.
oct 18- last txt R E


Lets bring back the memories...

2015

Jan 27 - JD back.

Jan 29 - Sabay sir.j

*others are texting, Tuy, MV... MF...

Jan 30 - rejected JD. bday of bubuy. with R.E back together - sr (1x)...
Feb 4 - first text again and call with R.E.
Feb 6 - sabay sir.J.
*(Feb 7 - sagutan jdc)
Feb 8 - Text... call RE
Feb 9,10,11,12 - TExt...call RE (morning shift)
Feb 11 - RE - SM mall & sp (2x)
*(Feb 12 - sagutan jdc with a again)
feb 13-14 no text, due to no cp
feb 15-16 text
feb 17, 18 - sim cannot be reach... 1st sim.
feb 19 - Chinese new year, no text. holiday
feb 20 - borrow sim RE., (return atm of jdc)
feb 21 - new sim RE 2nd sim , night shift
feb 22 - text me
feb 23/24 - one day no text (forgot the day)
feb 25 - no text?
feb 24-25, 26-27, 28 with text RE
feb 28 - sim cannot be reach, 2nd sim
mar 1-2 - RE official* - (3) - Crazy beautiful you*movie, ate, drank,
mar 2 - no text
mar 3 - text, bought new sim, 3rd sim
mar 4 - my bday *text RE
mar 5 - text RE
mar 6-7 no text, RE day off (JDC still sweet to me)
mar 7 - text with MP, no text RE
mar 8 - text RE, alabang with pepsi =shoes garci 10, mp 9 1/2, tuy 11, gear pad, bag)
mar 9 - no text RE, leave. (JDC wait lang- pero ayaw pala)
mar 10 - text RE
mar 11- text and meet RE (* 2nd official, 4)
mar 12 - text RE.
mar 13 - text RE.
mar 14- day off, no text
mar 15-16 text?
mar 17, 22 - day off RE, no text
other days with text or call...
mar 26 - caught the cp and sim...
mar 29 - 3rd official, 5 with RE*
mar 30 - no text/call
mar 31 - text/call RE
almost text everyday already... <3


Hope this is it, and I did the right thing...


apr 1 - text/call RE
apr 2-3 holy week holiday, RT texted. --- August 27, 1989 bday of RT
apr 4 - with R.T. (1)you're my boss, with call RE
apr 5 - splash with family. with call RE
apr 10 - not tuloy lakad with RE.
apr 11 - RT (2) ***-no RE
apr 12 - RT (3)
apr 17 to 18 - RT with... (4) but first
apr 19 - RT (5)
apr 24-25 - RT (6) but second, Nuvali moment.



Thank you God for everything...
I just hope that I will be okay already... <3
God, please help me... I know you will understand...