can't stop what im feeling right now...but it suddenly stops

(upon reading the title, may song ako naiisip, ung can this be love by sarah geronimo)

its been a long time since i posted a blog, because:
 i was too busy studying, trying to relax, and my brother was always using the computer
so, now, "its my time to shine", just kidding its my time to use!

Last week was the finals week (1st term), from august 28 (tuesday) -31 (friday)
and since this is my last term, i wanna career everything ....

BUT

last august 28 tuesday, we had our first final exam on BCHELE about food biochemistry, and i think i got confused on that exam, and nabaliktad ko mga answers, (e.g. instead of answering na potassium, i answered phosphorus).
so i was degraded and got tired of studying because:
1. kahit anong aral ko, d rin naman tumataas grade ko
2. kapag tumaas na grade ko sa isang subj, lagi nalang may sablay
3. kapag malapit nako magkaroon ng honor, biglang may 1.5 ako
4. kahit ano naman grade mo, ang importante ay may trabaho ka (as what qtv said)

last august 29 wednesday, had an exam on INOCHE3 higher inorganic chemistry, and on the exam, i was a little confident on my answers... but the exam was hard, and only 30items, so to pass the final exam, we must get 18 out of 30. Pero hindi naman ako kinakabahan dito na babagsak ako, because: i believe na all of us has the same grade, and it will be adjusted, besides, my first long exam is high, i think i got 90% on that.
After the exam, harvz and i went to chizzy and met aju there, and we just play and play until around 8pm even though there will be an exam the next day on CHYPRIN (3 in 1 subj)- on analytical chem, besides the exam the next day will be 4pm pa

last august 30 thursday, scanned the whole book and review some concepts about instrumental chemistry, the exam on analytical chemistry at 4pm, and the exam was just 50items... since 70% is the passing grade, need 35 correct answers out of 50. i just hope and pray that i pass, ...
and the next day august 31, still got an exam in organic chemistry at 4pm but i was in school at 1pm already and just to know that the exam will be moved at 5pm. So, i saw the list of people who are retaking the removal exam in analytical chem and I WAS NOT ON THE LIST, i was so happy and nawala un kaba ko.. coz i cant stay focus on thinking if i pass or not.

So, on that friday afternoon, i scanned the book in organic chemistry, and didnt much memorize on the reactions since the exam will be a multiple choice but there will be 90 multiple choice and some naming of the compounds. After we took the exam, i was so nervous that i wanna forgt about the exam,, and so harvz, aju, maan and i played the whole night up until around 10pm, and so we all got home late. I was so nervous, i was so worried... as of now, i think, i have about 8 sure wrong answers on that organic chemistry exam.
on that same night, adiel texted that the list results of physical chemistry will be known tomorow.....

The next day, which is yesterday, sept 1 saturday...
i went to school, and arrived at around 10am, bumped to ofel and saw jacq...
and of course, aju and harvz were late... sila pa! mga late at takaw tulog...
i just went to the chem department, and ask ate dang about the list on physical chem, and only 4 people fail, and going to take the removal exam, buti nalang pumayag si ate dang na i get the list from her since wala naman napagsabihan si adiel na iba so walang pupunta ng school just to see the result. but i wasnt nervous on this subject, at that time, i was still nervous for the organic chemistry exam.
After that, bumped to sir quevada and talked to him.... blah blah blah

I was so bored.... and bored...
Then aju called, asking if nasa school na si harvey, and i said wala pa... while i was talking to him, i saw harvey na...and that was around 12noon na
Dumaan ulit kami chem dept but there was no people there, and just went straight to chizzy sherwood and we played the new version of Castle Fight on which we practiced how to defeat the insane computer na sobrang hard talaga...
After one hour, aju came na... and we all played Castle Fight, then nung natalo na namin ung AI... nagsawa na rin kami, and played other games.... but still, harvz played Castle Fight, aju and i played o2 jam... After an hour, aju and i played CounterStrike and of course kahit paano napapatay ko naman c aju and headshot pa... then harvey joined... so 2 vs 1, silang dalawa versus me... sometimes nananalo naman ako sakanila... then played half-life... until naubos load ko... so, one on one nalang sila harvz and aju.
at around 6pm, we went to mcdo and eat.... tapos kabado parin ako sa orgche result, and nananakot c aju sa ibang people about the results....
around mag 7pm, uwian na kami... but i still waited for my sundo coz dadaanan ako ng parents ko.

Pag uwi ko, sobrang kabado ako... and hindi ako mapakali so, i wanna do something just to forgt my nervousness... at around 9pm, but i cant use the computer,  so i just read a FHM magazine sept 2007 issue (cover page michelle madrigal- sis of ehra) since i saw this on our house, and while reading i temporarily forgt my nervousness, and aju called, i expected na wala lang un tawag nya, and nananakot na naman siya.... so i kept reading nalang, and natapos ko agad un magazine, so i got another issue, un august 2007 issue (cristine reyes cover page)... wala na kasing ibang magawa at that time... at around 10pm, i got nervous again and so i surf the tv, and saw bewitched on hbo, and i remmbered other people saying na mganda ang bewitched so i watched it... and got focus on that movie... and forgt about my nervousness again.... until i finish the movie and got sleepy...

When i woke up this mrning, and saw a message texted by aju, and got a little bit nervous, the other one was just a quote, and the other one was just saying wla pa ung results. .. and so, uptil now 11am, i am still so nervous...and still nervous...

Hindi ko tuloy magawa mga gagawin ko:
1. gawin un revisions sa thesis write up, deadline na ng hard bound on tuesday
2. gonna focus sa high school musical 2
3. ayusin lahat requirements for the aplication form
4. find a job na talaga
5. gonna think of my life!

*Chyprin is a 3 in 1 majors (physical, analytical, organic chemistry), wherein a course that mkes us ready for the real board exam*


edited:
organic chem RESULTS FINALLY CAME OUT...between 1:30pm - 2:00pm
i AM SO DAMN HAPPY.... I CANT BELIEVE IT.... I PASS ORGANIC CHEMISTRY.
ACTUALLY, BEFORE PALANG CONFIDENT NAKO NA I WILL PASS CHYPRIN WITHOUT TAKING ANY REMOVAL EXAM, COZ I KNOW MY CAPACITY...I KNOW WHAT I CAN DO

chyprin (3 in 1 course): the board-exam style
1. PHYSICAL CHEM (taken last aug25)- I DIDNT STUDY THIS THAT MUCH, JUST SCANNED THE PAPER
2. ANALYTICAL CHEM (taken last aug30)- JUST SCANNED THE QUIZZES & THE WHOLE BOOK
3. ORGANIC CHEM (taken last aug31)- TINITIGAN KO UN PAPER FROM TIAN, THE REACTIONS, & THE NAMING OF COMPOUNDS PAGE LOCATED ON THE LAST PAGE BACK PART OF THE BOOK

THIS IS ALL I DID.... AND tada! I PASSED!!!!
and while studying, i was still watching tv, and doing all the things i do...like eating, texting, internet-ing, etc...

acknowledgements

FIRST - THANKS TO SIR QUEVADA FOR MAKING OUR LIVES EASIER
SECOND - THANKS TO DR MARIETA ILAO FOR MAKING THE PASSING GRADE 60%
THIRD - THANKS TO DR ANAMY PAANO FOR MAKING MOST OF US PASS
LASTLY - THANK YOU GOD...

NOW,
i can concentrate on what i have to do na...
1. thesis revisions, and im almost done on it...
2. the layout for tarpo of thesis, havent even started it yet
3. high school musical 2 steps, songs and the movie
4. finding a job, and my aplication form for being a part time lecturer, later tatapusin ko na
5. gotta revise my life.... (maybe d nyo gets,.) BASTA NALANG...



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